A day in the life of...

...the inner rumblings.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

if for no other reason...

who posted? Kristine |

you know those days when you really don't feel so inspired? this might be one of those days. I keep coming and looking at my blog, hoping to be inspired to write about something. anything. something deep. something funny. something that makes you and me think.

so, for lack of a whole lot to say, I'll keep it short and sweet.

grandpa and grandma are doing relatively well. grandma definitely seems to be slowing down in her walking and in her responses when talked to. I will say though, there is nothing that makes her light up more than the men, yes, I said men, in her life. one has been there for years. he's old, he's grey and he's the love of her life. he's her "special man." and he can get her attention like non other. then there's the other man in her life. he's grey but he's not exactly old. he's been around all his life, but not all hers. and he too, can get her attention like non other. he can get her to smile. he can get her to straighten up and walk like a queen. he's her boy. he's my dad. and she's pretty taken with him. its pretty sweet. so, all of us, me included, have come to the point of not liking it too much when dad needs to leave on weekend or week long trips. why? well, because grandma is just a different person. she slows even more. she responds even less. she stands just a little more hunched over. she smiles less. the minute he walks through that door? she glows.

we saw that glow again today. only it wasn't dad that walked through the door. it was uncle joe. she loves her boys. a lot. they brighten her day even if it wasn't gloomy. there is nothing for grandma like seeing one of her kids walk in the room. it doesn't matter what she's doing or not doing, she stops. she focus's. she straightens up. and she smiles. and she listens. she's taken. she adores her boys and her girl.

and so, we keep going. and we look forward to the visitors that stop in now and then. it makes the days seem shorter and brighter.

so, stop by when you can. :)

Tuesday, March 03, 2009

strange encounters and sweet obsession...

who posted? Kristine |

how do I attract this stuff?!

this morning I went for coffee with my cousin Rhoda, who everyone has always said I look just like... she and her hubby are missionaries in Tibet and are back to have baby number 2. so...we're sitting there at this coffee shop in Mechanicsburg and these two guys come in, get coffee then start looking at the art in the coffee shop. I'm not really paying attention cause we're talking, but it seems like they're sort of hanging around close to our table. soon, they leave. 5 minutes later, one of the guys comes back in, walks over to our table and says, "excuse me..." sits down at our table...and looks directly at me and goes, "you're really beautiful! are you married or in love?" HA! I'm like, "well, thank you but I do have a great boyfriend!" he says, "ok, so you're dating, but you're not in love yet. well, if that doesn't go well, you should give me a call!" ...and proceeds to give me his card! I was like, "well, I'm flattered but yes, I'm quite happily in a relationship with an awesome guy!" "well, tell him he's lucky!" then, he looks at Rhoda too and says, "you're really beautiful too, but I see you're married!!" and I was like, 'yeah, happily married and happily pregnant!!" she and I are just sort of looking at each-other, trying to not let the situation be more awkward than it already is!! he was nice enough and not creepy, and I could tell he was desperately trying to not look like a fool! so, he says again, "so, if that doesn't work out, let me know. I really am a nice guy and I'm sorry for interrupting and looking dumb!" and he leaves?!!! HA! I wanted to be like, "um, yeah, quite happily in a relationship with an amazing man who also FAR exceeds your mediocre looks!" HOW MEAN IS THAT??!!

back at the home, the fun never ceases...

I've finally figured out how to get grandma to stand up tall and walk straight! novel idea, huh?!

we're coming out of the bedroom, getting her to her chair for visitors and she's leaning. hard. and, I'm getting nervous cause I'm thinking, "if you go down, its gonna be a fun time!" all of a sudden, she straightens up, stands tall and starts carrying her own weight?!!! I look and she is FIXED on grandpa, standing in the living room, PERFECTLY placed! she cruises in there with NO problem. as we're getting settled, I say, "Grandma, I think I just figured out how to get you to walk straight! we just put grandpa wherever you're going and have him stand there, waiting for you. you totally just perked up and got focused on him and walked great?!!" Grandpa started chuckling and wouldn't stop!! it was so great. he never gets tired of hearing how much she adores him. it makes me happy.

I want to be like that when I'm 90.

Sunday, March 01, 2009

an attempt at fixing the negligence...

who posted? Kristine |

I know. its been awhile. quite awhile. but, what can I say, a lot has been happening...a lot.

update on grandma first though. she's been slowing down a fair amount, still walking, still talking, but just slower. tonight, when I took her to the restroom, and asked the standard question, "would you like to sit a little?" instead of a simple yes or no, she said, "you decide." hmm. "but grandma, I'm not sure what you need. what does your tummy say?" "my tummy says you should decide." :) I love her. a lot.

and...on the way out of the bedroom from her afternoon nap...she catches site of grandpa in the kitchen and is completely taken, watching him off to her right, and not watching at all where she's going. at this season of life, its not really a good thing for her to walk without watching where she's going because she leans wherever she's looking! grandpa chuckles and tells her to watch where she's going. I asked her if she was distracted by a handsome man. "yes, he's important. I was distracted by an important man." she's so in love. I love watching them sit in the living room, holding hands, just looking at eachother, without saying a word. its priceless really.

they're good. its a rich time to get to be with them. life is slow. they're at peace. they're enjoying these last days together.

where have I been? growing, learning, stretching, resting, enjoying, experiencing, anticipating, receiving...and well, traveling. three weeks in Colorado, which my heart loves. a week in Pennsylvania and a week in DC. CO was full of training, intensity, depth, healing, growth and fulfillment. PA was an awesome week of wedding coordinating and DC...well, DC was an adventure, full of unknowns, excitement, anticipation and new relationship! a week that won't be soon forgotten. yes, there is so, so much more to each of these as you can imagine, but I've decided that it will have to come in pieces...as I am able to put them into words. as my heart is ready to spill. so, you'll have to wait. or, you could email me. thats always an option.

until then...life is good. really good. there is peace. there is vision. there is excitement. there are unknowns. there is grace. lots of grace.

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